It been days that I actually refuse to take her calls and reply her sms-es...all these doesn't feels good at all...Been trying to contact her since then but when she finally contact me i felt so happy that she finally contact me once again but at the same time I felt so afraid and sad to reply her..So afraid that when will she just mia from me again and suddenly appear out of no where after days? I really felt so confuse for all these...what does she really wants? She made me find my directions with her but she is also the one that made me lost all our directions too...
saw some photos few days back once again..is her so called "primary school friend" and her once again...and they were never tag in the album again...isn't the guy suppose to be attached?applied regalia as per wat she said?But every single outing her so called "primary school friend" 's the other half is not there too? or will she be telling mi this time round that the guy doesn't has a FB a.c so cannot tag? I know i been trying to find excuses for her and for me... but i just cant help it...felt damn useless of me...and it felt even more shitty to see her hugging and enjoying and smiling so much in the photos with HIM and during times like that between us? What if i am the one hugging so closely with another girl in the picture..i really wonder how will she feel...
I tried to stand firm but each time her sms comes in, i really wanted to reply but i cant find the courage to press send after i finish typing my sms...and i got really so pissed off too the other day cause she actually asked me why did i remove her from her FB....Would i be so free and stupid to do that when i have been trying to build back our r.s and trying so hard to locate her all these while? When i realise i m not in her list i even tried to send request to add her back praying that she will accept my request...but guess what..she actually rejected and asked me why did i remove her from my list...To me I am a person if i block or remove you i will say the truth, why go hide or deny all these when i hate hypocrites totally....so why would i try to go be a hypocrite myself? Even is FB problem, i got 264 friends in my list, does this has to be so "qiao" that this kind of FB issue only happens between me and her? Happen once maybe..but so many times? I even did testing with my own account by setting up a new account to test...But yet i tried to find excuses for her to get away with all these...blame it on FB, blame it on whatever...except her.. I have already tried finding all kinds of excuses for her to hide up whatever she has done, what else or more you want? I am really tired......
And all these while i been trying to contact her or to talk to her about our house issue, but there wasn't any positive responses from her..n now after our deadline she suddenly just come sms me about want talk about house? how ironic right? ain't this like what she told me the other time? stupid and contradicting myself? isn't this the same case for her?
Felt so afraid to give in once again...I really dunoe . . . . . .
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